.. September 1st at 6:41 PM, after three days of torture Julian Andres finally decided to make his grand entrance. He weighed 6lbs 15oz and he was 20 inches long, and I fell in love almost instantly. He had a full head of black hair and beautiful brown eyes. He was mine. The love that had already started brewing from the moment I found out I was pregnant, began to overflow the minute I heard his sweet little cry.
After 6 weeks of being home with Juli I went back to school to start my senior year of High School. My first couple mornings back, all I could do was cry. I couldn't wait for the day to be over so I could go home and hold Julian. Being away from him all day was so hard. By the time I got home, I was absolutely exhausted. I was always tired.
Shit wasn't always sweet though. This little boy would sleep alllllllllll day while I was at school. He'd wake up while I was doing homework and he'd fall back asleep for the night, but wake up a couple hours before I had to wake up for school. Sleep for me became non-existent, I was practically a walking mummy. I did it for him though.
I graduated high school
I've held on to this label of "single mom" for years now. It's been the way I defend myself against anything that could potentially hurt me; my cape. I'm a single mom - I'm a superhero. I found myself doing EVERYTHING. I put together his crib and his toddler bed on my own. I pay bills, clean the house, and kiss boo-boos. I plan birthday parties, buy Hot Wheels racetracks, and read bedtime stories. I go years wearing the same clothes solely because I'd rather Julian have everything he needs. This is all so draining, but it's all a part of the persona that I have come up with to protect the both of us: I am a superhero, invincible.
My Supermom Qualities:
- Master Chef
- Nurturing and protecting Julian
- Sonic Screams lmfao I can definitely scream at Julian in decibels higher than most people can
- Saying NO without caving in
- I have eyes on the back of my head
- I'm a spy in disguise
I have a long way to go and a lot more things to learn about being a mother. I do not condone being a teen mother, ITS HARD. But the journey so far has been amazing man. And there's nothing I'd change ever.
I'd like to take a second to thank the PTB crew for being there every step of the way. Thank you to Corey, Kyle and X for being by my side. To my amazing mother and aunts for all the love and support. And to y'all for the nice words I get every now and again.
Happy Mothers Day to all the amazing mothers out there