Letters 2 You - @sxtilman___
I guess I haven’t written in my notes because everything that pops into my head I put it down in the journal I’m writing for you. I keep saying I can only write when I feel things and that it’s personal. I think once I started writing I put down meditation, it’s peace for me. And once I started writing to manifest things I wanted, it became that freeing feeling I got when I first started.
You went on about how sacred writing is to me and while I agreed the only thing that stays on my mind is how sacred you are. I hate how repetitive my compliments are but you have a knack for leaving me speechless. I like to believe I’m great with my words but there’s something about the way that little smirk appears in the corner of your mouth when you’re up to something, that takes every syllable out of my vocabulary and the only thing I’m left able to do is stare in awe.
To this day, I don’t know what it was that attracted me to you originally. Obviously, you’re jaw dropping but I’m not that shallow.. that wouldn’t have been enough to grab my attention the way you did. Something pulled me towards you, towards that almost mystical aura. To not know anything about you, not even your name and still, I wanted everything to do with you.
To all the girls I’ve tried to entertain before you came along, please forgive me.
I wasn’t invested the way i should’ve been.
My attention was elsewhere.
Because there you were, in the back of my mind, dancing to your own beat.
Thank God something made me start listening to that beat you were dancing too. You’d become more and more present in my mind… you weren’t dancing in the shadows anymore. Every thought I had watched as you stood and danced boldly in the center of my mind.
It’s crazy how far we’ve come.
From nervous guy scared to approach the beautiful girl.
From complete strangers to what we are now— you laying on my chest sleeping, as I write this.
As much as i thought about what we could be or turn into during the time I was too shy to approach you… My imagination was never this good.
Love you always,
In this life and the next.